Time Ticks On

Tick Tick Tick...

Why is that all I can hear when I think of what I want to do

The stress of wanting to do everything because life is beautiful but not having the means nor confidence to do so feels like I'm in the hourglass, sand falling on my chest weighing me down

Tick Tick Tick...

I'm only 26 but looking back it feels like I've been wasting my life since 18

It never seems to matter how much I try to push myself, how many goals I set, how much I hype myself up or how much time I try to save its never enough

Tick Tick Tick...

The time it never slows down I can never get an hour, minute, or second to breathe

Half the reason is money, I can never save enough to do what I want like concerts, trips, affording "luxuries" for myself because the slightest mistake can lead to financial ruin in today's world and all that work and no play leaves me hearing that

Tick Tick Tick...

Louder and louder in my head

I see friends and coworkers doing these things I want to do and I end up with a deep seated fear of missing out on life those same grains of sand in that hourglass pushing me down farther and it seems the more I struggle against it the worse the feeling gets because I give myself hope for a maybe when I know it'll wind up as an inevitable "no" either from myself or others

Tick Tick Tick.

It's just too damn loud and sometimes it's hard to see a way out