Matthew Primous
Bio
I am a Black Scholar, International Scholar, & Google Scholar, & 3-Time Eber & Wein Best Poet., Nominee for Poet of the Year, 2020 Black Author Matters Winner, 2 time Akademia Excellence Essayists,& 2022 Honorary Muckrack Journalist.
Stories (311/0)
A New Walk
Yes we've been through. We've been through the storm. We've been through the rain. We've been through the ups and we've been through the downs. But God has not left us. God has not forsaken us. God is still with us. God is stil fighting our battles. God is still covering us. Let us march on march march on children. As I graced the podium, the choir sang Children of God well we're marching to Zion. Children of God well we're marching to Zion step by step all the way. We're marching we're marching up to Zion that Beautiful that beautiful city of God well well we're marching step by step all the way all the way. And I felt like shouting so the choir went faster and said Marching marching to Zion. Then they went into O Magnify the Lord for He is worthy to be praised, O magnify the Lord for he is worthy to be praised. Hosanna Blessed be the Rock Blessed be the Rock of my salvation. And I stood at the entrance of the New Hope Baptist Church shaking the hands of my members as they said it was a mighty good service. My wife Joana and my two children stood with me. I felt happy. I felt assured. I felt like something has changed. A few days later I heard that the church was vandalized and declared to the congregation that we will have church outside until the church is fixed. You see our church lied on beautiful acres. Did you know it was a built on a former plantation? Our forefathers brought this land and they were given it for their service in the Civil War. And Dr. Martin Luther King called me to show his sincerity for my church and to show that he cares about the people that stand behind him. I told him that I am alright and that my church is still standing and we will go out with you dear brother. And he said i want you to be besides me to lead the march. I said it will be my honor dear brother. We ended it with God bless. I had one more service before the protest and demonstration. The choir hummed Precious Lord. And I said Some are you are ready. Ready to die for rights. Ready to die for God. Ready to give up everything to see justice. And some of you aren't ready. Don't you know a grain has to die in order for a seed to prosper. Don't you know God has to take you through for you to make a difference. Don't you know Jesus knew that. That's why he was broken for us. And he said do this in remembrance of me. On the night he was betrayed, He took the bread and blessed it and broke it and said this is my body which was broken for you take eat. Then the cup this is my blood which was shed for the remission of sin. And last but not least he said do this in remembrance of me. Then he washed the disciples' feet, and he said to love one another and do this for each other. We are supposed to be helpers one to another. Sang choir. Precious Lord take my hand lead me on let me stand I am tired I am weak I am worn Through the storm through the night lead me on to the light take my hand Precious Lord and lead me home. When my way grow so drear and my time is almost near precious Lord I need you to linger near when my life is almost gone hear my cry hear my call guide my feet Sweet Jesus lest I fall and take my hand Precious Lord and lead me home. And the Pastor said Let's go with justice. Let's go with freedom. Let's go tell to the mountain. Let's go tell it to the seas. Let's go tell it to the plains. Let's go tell it to the praires. That God has given freedom. March. Walk, Like Brother Dr. King said crawl if you have to. Let's get there. Let's get there. We will get there somehow. We will get there someway. We will get there O Lord. So let's walk for freedom. Let's walk for justice. Walk a new Walk today for life, liberty and pursuit of happiness. And then we walked with Dr.King as they came to our church New Hope Baptist Church.
By Matthew Primousabout 3 hours ago in History
The New Robe
I walked to New Hope Baptist Church everyday. Because I love the community. I love the atmosphere. I love my job. I have been preaching at New Hope Baptist Church for decades. Even when it rain and even when it shines. I love working for the Lord. Because you see the Lord's been so good to me that he gave me a brand new mercy. The Lord's been so good to me that he woke me up this morning. The Lord's been so good to me that he started me on my way. I don't mind sweating to church. I don't mind feeling a little rain to church. I don't mind feeling a little cold to church. Because it is an honor to come before God another morning. God been mighty good and I am mighty glad to be at his service. He saw fit for me to live. He saw fit for me to be. He saw fit to bless me. As I stood before the church this Sunday and they sung Blessed it be the Rock, Blessed it be the Rock of my salvation. Hosanna Blessed it be the Rock. And mother was singing in the choir, you know under Dad she used to show out. Mom would sing that song like she was Miram, Moses' sister. And Dad would get happy and clap his hand and stand shouting. My siblings and I would get the Holy Ghost and shout in the front seat with our grandmother. Now my wife Joana and Jester and Phillipa were in the front row shouting and praising God. As church went out, we waited outside to greet everyone and shake their hand to give them fellowship. And one of the deacons pulled me aside and he said Pastor you know that they are talking about the Civil Rights. They are fighting for Civil Rights. And what are you gonna do about? And I said I will let the Lord lead me when it is time Deacon. And the Deacon presisted Pastor other churches are getting involved. You don't know what if your own flock may be getting involved. Some are going to jail and some are being beaten. And I said If the Lord is willing then I shall but I have not heard from him yet. And the Deacon left saying I am just trying to tell you something is happening in our community and New Hope Baptist Church should be apart of it. And my wife Joana came in and asked what the deacon wanted. And I slowly but surely broke it down to her. And she was worried about the community. She was concerned for our children and the future of the church. And I reassured my wife that I will see about this and will protect the flock of God by all means necessary. As the week progress, the protestors marched passed the church just before Bible Study and they were shouting and chanting. It disturbed Bible Study and I was concerned about moral upbringing of my congregation. And the people begin talking about the protest and demonstrations some were for it and some were against it. And the congregation asked me and I told them God will keep in perfect peace whose mind stayed on Him and I dismissed the congregation. And the police later on called me threatening that if my congregation get involved that there would be dire consequences. And I cried out that they are God's flock and you don't care. They are people. They are human beings. They have little children. I have never cause any trouble before. We don't do that at New Hope Baptist Church and never done it. And my mother came in my office at home and she overheard and she said, you know God respect courage son. Courage to say the right things. Courage to do the right things. And he accept nothing less. Speak those things that be not as though they were. Your father could not do it but now you can. And I hesitately agreed reasuring with a hug and kiss on the cheek. And my mother presented a new robe and I was shocked and said I never wore any robe except Dad's robe. She said he saved this one for you for this day. So the choir sung Let my people go. Pharoah Pharoah let my people go. You oppressed their backs you make life hard. Let my let my people go. Thus saith the Lord Let my people go. I said I come before you in a new robe. A new hope. A new faith. A new love. My eyes have been opened and my mind has been changed. We can no longer ignore the needs for justice. We can no longer be satisfied within ourselves. We all are Moses and we must go down down into Egypt down into that bitter land down into that heat of injustice and let God's people all God's people go. For the Lord cried out from the mountain Let my people go. Then I stretched forth my right hand over all the congregation, Let my people go.
By Matthew Primousa day ago in Interview
The Queen of Cushites
It was long ago so long ago many people forgot. Many people did not remember the past decades because of all the conflict that happened. Many people did not know about the conspiracy that my mother and her family had done in Egypt. I did not know much because mother and father kept it a secret. My parents were together as long as I remember. And I knew they were destined to be forever as long as they lived. I was just a child when my mother married my father. My mother would speak about her past every now and then but lead up to nothing. My father covered her a lot when I was growing up. I grew up to know mainly Cush language but also I knew bits and pieces of Egyptian to speak to my mother. My mother was native to the Cush language. As prince of Cush since my grandfather died a decade ago, my parents were appointed to rule the land. And they ruled with grace and dignity, my mother was very wise much wiser than my father. I just thought because she was from a nobler family and just happened to went to a learning place, school, or had good education. Mother won the love and respect of the Cush people. And father delighted in her presence and he would try to never say anything bad about her. They had their issues but father never stop telling her that he love her and he would die for her. My parents were in love as any young couple and they showed respect for each other as they were watched by the entire kingdom. It so happened that Cush made a truce with Egypt. Cush was very rich and Egypt was somewhat rich. And the Pharaoh that had known mother had died in battle and his son took his place and the Court forced him to marry one of the past Kings of Egypt's daughter. This new Pharaoh at once wanted to meet the King and Queen of Cush at the border to show the truce was real. And mother and father dressed young and arrayed. And the Pharaoh was pleased at seeing the King and Queen of Cush but his wife the Queen was not that pleased however she pretended to be happy and show courtesy. And Pharaoh who was thrilled at the beauty of mother asked to speak to them over dinner. So they cooked the traditional meal at the border and met in the tent of friendship. Pharaoh insisted that mother talk about herself and just before mother could say too much. Father excused her from further dealings and he used it for his advantage to secure economic ties. And Pharaoh sought cattle and sheep as well as plenty of grain of Egypt. Pharaoh finally ended the meeting after saying that mother brought comfort after his father died during battle and his mother died after heartbreak. It happened that after sometime after I mature and had to seek a wife. Pharaoh was interested in me marrying one of his relatives. And mother was wrought and father tried to calm her down. Mother would not let it go and she was demanding an end to the treaty. She said My son will never be Egyptian and he will never go back to Egypt and I don't care what that Pharaoh says. And father let her go because she was hot-temper and angry. And my father sought all the servants out and he told me to come to the throne with his scepter. And he explained to me the real story about how I was born and he said my mother's real name is Seros. And i felt angry and upset but i waited to questioned mother until she was not hot-tempered. Pharaoh received the news and he was wrought and his wife encouraged pursuit. His wife talked about how her father's murder was his wife who could not bear and how her mother should have been Queen to save him but the Court refused a concubine on the throne. His wife tricked and deceived him into demanding that my mother and father and I come to Egypt which I was told by one of mother's servants. Mother had still some connections to Egypt that she did not tell father but I found after father told me the real story. And my father sought a nasty forward to the Pharaoh threatening to cut all ties with him. Pharaoh secretly declared war on Cush within days of receiving that message from the King of Cush. And mother had her spies to tell her and she prepared me to leave to Ethiopia. And I told mother that I knew everything and that I love her. And mother sought me away. To stall the Egyptian troops she said I killed that Pharaoh. I am Seros. He was a terrible man and he lied to me. And I will never go back to Egypt. And the Egyptian troops begin sabotaging and terrorizing our nation and I knew mother and father were gone and I was all that was left of the family. And so I left to Ethiopia and did just what my mother did left my home country to start over again but this time not with royalty just with a fair villager.
By Matthew Primous2 days ago in History
The Last Queen of Egypt
It all started when I was young and immature. I thought being queen would make me a goddess. I would be worshipped and celebrated. I would be loved by my people. And the prince was a handsome man and a man of accolades a man of war a man of love. And I was fallen for him. He took this naive woman and made her into something. Yes it is true that I could of married anyone but my parents told me to marry the best suitor. There were other interests and other loves but the prince won me over. He was charming and funny and lovable. He was gentle to animals and creatures. I saw his field of animals that he knew by name. And he was kind and gentle with me. He called me lovable names and he made me feel loved and embraced. It was hard not thinking about him. It was hard not being near to him. He was everything I wanted and more. And I could not keep to myself around him. I was in love with the prince. I was madly in love and I dreamed about him. I saw him in visions. I could imagine us getting married and having a beautiful and wonderful family. All the best notions crossed my mind about him. And when we finally got married before the passing of his father. He promised me his heart and his love forever and that the gods would be witnesses to his passion for me. And we have rememberable moments, the prince was so romantic that I never thought anyone else could have crossed his mind. And he would always asked me my opinion. He was a respectful and descent man. And never let anyone called me anything else but Queen of Egypt. We were in love and madly in love. We had tried to start a family but I couldn't. I mean I wanted to but my body would not let me. And so I let my prince impregnant other women to keep him and to maintain my place on the throne. We were in this together. We were in this forever. But there was one time that I really really wanted him and he was not there. And I barge in his bedroom and he was not there. I secretly dressed like a servant and entered Pharoah's pool and my prince my king was sleeping with a whole field of women. And he was promising them the throne and he would promised them everything including my place. I ran out in rage and back to my bedroom and I refused to see the King of Egypt for days. And I was plotting how to get revenge and win back the throne. I befriended the Captain of the Guard. We never went passed friends but I asked him who are the enemies of Egypt and he mention Cush and Ethopia. And we ate over dinner with his wife who was my handmaid, he went on and on about stories about the wars and battles between our nations. And he eventually had to attend to the King's wants and he left good word for me. My handmaid tell me Seros do you plan on leaving the king? And I said How can I when he is King of Egypt? But I do plan on going on a trip out of the country. My handmaid said I will go with you. My handmaid's husband came back hours later and said the King would like to see you. And I said very well. So I dressed in all apparel and pleased the Court, bowed before the King and we talk. And I said I must go away and be on a trip to refresh and rejuvate myself as I am stressed about us O King. And the King being humilated and scared of his adultery allowed me to leave. As I left that night with soldiers, it happened I led them to an enemy of Egypt and I was captured within days. The Cushites were friendly towards me, they gave me sweet wine and delicate cakes. I was not their prisoner. And their prince was infatureated with me, he would talk gently to me and gave me sweet kisses. And I laid with me many times and became pregnant. The King of Egypt forced by the Court to bring me back for the reputation of Egypt. I was happy with child and so to save my new family. I willingly plotted where to meet the Egyptian soldiers. And I pleaded to get home fast after years in trap as a prisoner in Cush. And when my husband came into me, he said that I appear different and he was angry that another man he felt been with me. I said that I had no other choice and why didn't he come for me. The King of Egypt walked right out the door and left thinking about what to do with me. The handmaid came to me saying that some of the women that he has been with plotted to take your place. And that's when I plotted with the Captain of the Guard if you rid the King then you can have the throne if you let me escape. The Captain of the Guard said but how? I said Say that it was a conspiracy from one Egypt's enemies. And so the plot was carried out within days and the nation was in an uproar. I spoke about the troubles in the marriage and how he betrayed me and disgrace me. I spoke ill of the King and had the Court to pitied me. And I supported that the Captain of the Guard be Pharoah especially since he was my half-brother. And the Court voted then I resigned from the throne in disgrace and cast out of Egypt. And my prince of Cush came for me after several months and I changed my name and became his princess. And I never walked into Egypt again.
By Matthew Primous2 days ago in History
The Beauty within
It was my mother's funeral, Queene had died. And my father, Benji died before that. Relatives and friends alike came to wail the loss. And they wore their fancy clothing and embrace one another. I was there with my family the doctor I married was still the beautiful woman I loved. And she gave me a daughter named Zula. And Zula was an exact epitome of her grandmother Queene. She was beautiful and smart and talented. We were there with relatives and friends alike. And we sung the songs of our people Oh wa Oh wa Oh wa nay nay nay shaba. And then the song Doah doah doah shaba shaba shabha Dah na. Then the song wah wah wah naba wah wah wah naba shaba shaba shaba ra. And I testified as Maco their son about my mother's life and father's life and their love and hardwork. I was hoping to see my brother Tarack but I did not see him. So I went on talking about their love story and the lives that they touched. And how much they meant to me and my family. I was just about to finish when Tarack came at the last minute. And he did not want to speak. He just cried like a child and broke down saying Mama. After I introduced my daughter Zula and Tarack was glad to say he was her uncle. And hug me and my wife the doctor. And the Doctor said you made sure you are staying out of harm's way and doing everything to maintain your health. And Tarack was shocked but she laughed and said that's my profession, it's a profession joke. Tarack smiled and said My niece look like my mother. I guess you did pick the right woman. I was shocked that Tarack gave a compliment like that. And he left and I looked at my wife and I was wondering what Tarack was up to because he said that abruptly. And I tried to catch up to him but I could not he escaped. It bothered me what he said and I wanted to know the meaning behind it. Did my brother want a family? Was he having family issues? Does he have a child? And my daughter Zula said she would go out and find her uncle. She said Uncle Tarack doesn't live far from here. I just need a few protectors' father and I can go. I at first objected to it but her mother convinced me to let her go saying she is young and grown. She needs adventure. So I gave my okay. And she kissed me and hug her mother and got ready. I told Shobat our servant that if anything happen to her it would be his head with the rest of the men because she is my only daughter. And Zula waved and went into the mountains and she look back one last time and kept going. After days and days of travelling, Zula believed they were wondering and she saw a man hunting and called for him. He said hi my name is Gacobs. And Zula introduced herself and said he looked familiar. And she asked him if he ever heard of Tarack. And Gacobs said while making them dinner, there is a story about this warrior who roam around here. This warrior was in loved with nature though he was very handsome and old. He would run with the cheetah. He would play with the lion. And he would ride the zebra. And he would chase the heines. And he was one with the nature but nobody knows what happen to him. Zula said I think you are talking about my uncle and his name is Tarack. Zula asked his story. And Gacobs said my father left my mother when I was young. He left after teaching me how to hunt and fish. He left after teaching me to walk and play. He loved animals but that's all I know. Then something was happening with the animals, they were running the next day early. And Gacobs tried to calm my fears and he rescued me from the herd. Shobat and the men escaped and found me. And it was Tarack on a zebra, Zula did not noticed him until he said my daughter from my brother. Zula cried and bowed Uncle I found you. My father your brother is worried for you. Tarack said about what? She said he is worried that something is bothering you. He said No not really. Gacobs said Sir you do remind me of my father. He looked a lot like you. Tarack resisted and he turned and said, That is what I am worried about, my son Gacobs your cousin. Zula shocked and traditionally welcome her cousin. Tarack said I did not raise him. I abandon him and now what legacy do I have. Zula tried many times convincing him but Gacobs interrupted the last time. Gacobs firmly said You taught me to walk. You taught me to fish. You taught me to hunt. You are still my father. Tarack cried silently and he said Whatever you want son I will give it to you even half of my treasures. Gacobs said Dad father leave the land and come home. Go back to your mother's land. Tarack agreed and they all went back with Zula. Tarack guided with Gacobs and Zula. And Tarack whispered to Gacobs that he thinks Shobat likes Zula because he keeps staring at her and looking at her. So Gacobs introduced himself to Shobat and said So you like my cousin. And he said she is very lovely. And Tarack and Gacobs introduced the fact that Shobat had a crushed on Zula to Zula. And Zula called for her father and they throw a big celebration. And Zula introduced her cousin Gacobs and her uncle Tarack while claiming her new boyfriend Shobat. And the family was one again and they were beautifully united and happy celebrating one another and enjoying each other company.
By Matthew Primous2 days ago in Families
The Beauty of Life
There was changed everywhere. Change in the atmosphere. Change with the environment. People were feeling change and they did not know what type of future would come to them. People were worried. People were fretting and anxious. And it can be felt throughout the whole region. We knew something was brewing and it was not good. As Queene and Benji grew their family, they had two children, two sons. One was much older and was one was much younger. Tarack and Maco were not alike. Some people did not believe they were full blooded brothers. One was day and one was night. And they did not get along either. They were total opposite. Sometimes Tarack was gentle and Maco was angry. And Maco was gentle and Tarack was angry. And their appearance was somewhat alike and somewhat different. Everytime they get into an argument, Tarack would remind Maco who watched him when his parents were not around and who saved him plenty of times from trouble. Maco would brush off the same rebuttal. And Tarack kept saying there will be times you need me and I won't be there to save you and neither would Mom or Dad. And Maco would shrug off the lesson. And it happened as Maco was attending to the sheep and cattle that a lion came out of nowhere to attack and Maco was struggling but he managed to hit the foot of the lion and the lion ranaway crying. He told the story to everyone, his mother and father and his brother and his friends and his family. And they did not believe him until they saw the broken staff with lion's teeth marks. And Tarack was jealous that he could not celebrate with his family. And Maco tried to talk him down and say that family is family. I still need you but not as much. And you will always be my older brother. Mom and Dad still need you to be the strong one. I just got lucky. And Tarack would listen but play with the fire he had made to stay warm. And one of the times, a cheetah came out of the darkness to attack a cattle. And Tarack fought it and the cheetah got at his leg but he stab the cheetah in the head and punched it. and the cheetah ranaway. Tarack came limping home. And he endured the pain and walk through the door. And Benji caught him before he fell. And Tarack was trying to explain how a hero he was. And his father and mother were worried about his health. Maco praised Tarack and called him a hero. And they called the doctor to check on his health. The doctor was a beautiful woman, she had just finished her education. And she was on her first assignment with Tarack. Maco was in loved and flirting with the doctor but Tarack was acting tough and annoyed. The doctor recommended that he stay in and heal and get plenty of rest. Tarack resisted but his parents listened and forced him to. Tarack learned to like being off his feet but he was so bored. And Maco begin talking to him, you know that doctor is beautiful. I love her. Tarack said you would love anything but my love is for the land. My love is for the adventure. My love is for the outdoors. I can't be kept. I can't be silenced. I can't be housed. And just when Maco was about to finish the doctor came in. She overheard Tarack demand and she said you have been doing good for months maybe you should see the outdoors. And Tarack lited up and immediately tried to leave. He was so happy he kissed Mom and the doctor on the cheek. Maco asked out the doctor and the doctor after Maco convinced her begin to order dates. Tarack rode on horses. Tarack played with the cattle. Tarack picked up the sheep. Eventually he ran throughout the country went on long walks breathe in and breathe out the nature stood up late and rose early. Maco eventually got married while Tarack politely waited till his love for nature came to a hold.
By Matthew Primous3 days ago in Families
The Beauty of the Land
It was long time ago faraway in a distant land. There dwelled noble people people with traditions people with cultures people with accents. They were peaceful people and they were more civilized than war. They had developed in this land and they had became something more durable than conflict. They were adventurous people. People who highly regarded collective and unity. People who were not afraid to fight for family. People who would befriend those who embraced their culture. And they lived with dignity and honor. They would strive to be something great. They were taught many stories orally that they had to remember. Benji was a shepherd and he hurdle many cattles and sheep alike. He was a very patient man. He worked most of his life for what he wanted. But he could not find a mate. He would sometimes dream of being with someone. He would drift off in his own fantasy. But all he had was cattle and sheep that he treated like children. He would keep watch over all of them and make sure they were well feed. And he was one of the best shepherd in his days. He was steadfast and loyal. He had some wealth. He would not be afraid to help his neighbor whom he often gave advice to about how to tend his sheep. Because the sheep would wander in Benji's flock. And then there were Queene, she was total opposite in fine clothing and fine array. She was the talk of her town. She was very beautiful and graceful. But she did not find a suitor who would bring her true happiness. She was scared of motherhood and she was uncertain about having a family. Queene never did anything for herself. She was well-maintained by her father's servants. And she was set to inherit a good fortune one day. It so happened that Queene had to go on a visit near a town by Benji's hometown. And Queene was well protected and well-cared for. When a raging lion came out of nowhere and started attacking her company. The servants told Queene to escaped for her life while they fight the lion. But Queene was stubborn and she hesitatingly moved. That's when Benji came along the way and he was courageous and brave. He took his shepherd's staff and rod and beat the lion into submission. And the lion ranaway after several attempts to recuperate. And Queene bravely approached Benji and Benji was still shocked over the battle with the lion and he was gonna fight more than he noticed it was a beautiful woman, it was Queene. And she hugged him tightly and said you saved our lives. You brave and courageous man. What is your name? And Benji said stuttering It is Benjamin no I mean Benji. And Queene said my name is Queene you must at once come with me. You're my hero and you deserved to be celebrated. But Benji resisted humblely and said Anybody would do anything for his neighbor. Especially as beautiful as you are. And Queene kissed him on between his lips and cheek. And Benji who have never known a woman enjoyed the kiss very much. That he said he would never forget her and will help get her to her destination. Queene said don't follow behind but stay near as my protector Benji. And he followed her into her relatives' city. And as they entered many shouted hurray for the married couple. And Queene and Benji locked eyes and accepted it. And during the celebration Benji asked her to marry him. And her relatives after hearing the story shouted well marry him. And Queene and Benji were married and she sought news to her father's house who was thrilled.
By Matthew Primous3 days ago in Families
A Time to Love
It all started here in Joplin. I was just a young kid on the streets of Joplin. I did not do much. I was just chilling with my friends. And that same cop kept coming by saying stuff. And he was showing his weapon and ready to start something. I was just young and having fun. And down through the years, I started having attitude, talking stuff and being about something. I did not know better. I was just learning how to be a man. And I started to hang out with the wrong crowd and got into somethings. But I knew better i was no druggy no alcoholic. I just like having fun. And one night the cop pulled me over and frisk us right in front of our girls. And he made us feel embarrassed embarrassed of ourselves embarrassed as a man and embarrassed as a people. And he frisk me one too many so I fought with him knee him in the chest and he fell and pull a gun. And he called me a rotten N-Word and I started fighting with him and with his gun. And he called for back up and that's when that's when that's when the gun went off and he was shot. My friends told me to run but I knew not to. I tried to stop the bleeding and the blood was everywhere. And his backup came and pointed guns at me while I was on my knees and they told me to put my hands behind my hand and I did. Then they jumped on me and put cuffs on me and arrested me. All i was thinking of was my dear mother. My mother crying and angry because of what I did. And I did not care anymore. I was held at the station for hours and hours. And my mother came after being called at work, she said he is just a young man and you're gonna keep him lock up for six hours with only using the bathroom in his cell. And they tried to calm my mother down and explained that a cop almost died and that I would have to appear in court. That I could not be free until further notice. My mother screamed and panic, she begin to say that's my son that's my son and you can't do that to him. And I yelled Mom it's alright I'm okay. The officer said you can come by and visit him and bring him food but he must stay until the judge decides what to do to him. My mother asked to come to my cell and they allowed her to see me through the door. Son why have you've done this? Why have you shamed us? I warned you. I told you not to play around and you don't listen. You don't listen. And I cried Mom I am sorry. But she just walked away and gave my meal to the officer and left. Later on that week in jail, a lawyer called me and said that my mother paid him to represent me and he went through the protocol. The lawyer allowed for me to be free in the community room alone with my mother and him. And he begin to questioned me over and over again. And I was tired but my mother was persistent. And she said that she is trying to save me now just answer. And I said Mom it was an accident. I did not mean for this to happen. I did not shoot him. We were struggling and the shot came. And my mother looked at me hard and long and said Son I believe you but I don't know if the law will. The lawyer said Do you want to go to school? Do you want to be something? I said yeah but Mom doesn't have the money. The lawyer said it's okay because it will build your character. Did the officer say why he frisk you? I said No. Ohhhh that's a violation of Miranda's law said the Lawyer. Mrs. Rosalind you have a case. So weeks and weeks of being in the holding and solitary, i had to come to court and testify. I tried to be serious. I tired to be firm. I tired to be immovable. I was swore in. The Lawyer asked for my story and I told my story with tears in my eyes and my mother cried But the defense and prosecutor came straight for me. And I said There's a season for everything a time to laugh a time a time to grief a time to fight a time to give up a time for war a time for peace but I wondered when the time to love and if I did not regret my actions I would not have stood by that officer to save his life. And the defense and prosecutor rested and later on after the trial the jury decided that I was not guilty.
By Matthew Primous4 days ago in Confessions
I Love the Lord
I never thought about being religious much. It never crossed my mind. I just thought if you be a good person that your life will be set before you. That you could become great. I wasn't an atheist. I just did not have a close relationship with God. I definitely did not want to go to Hell and I was not infatuated with demonic stuff. But I was still unsure about life and unsure about what I wanted to do with my life. But then things happened, things you don't expect happened. Diseases, poverty and natural disasters who knows. But everyone goes through something in this life, in this world that is unpredictable. Because if it was predictable then most people would have voided it. I was one of those people. I guess I had it coming but how could you guess I believe things just happen. I Louisa begin imagining things. I just kept seeing stuff. I don't know it appear to me like a thriller. A nightmare that will never end. And it would happen unconsciously and consciously. I just kept having these incidents daily. And I told my doctor and I told my best friend Joyce. They kept happening all of sudden and I would lose my mind. It was just awful that I had to tell the doctor I would not leave his office until he tells me what it is. And the doctor agreed and gave me testing. And the doctor gave me medicine temporarily to ease the sickness. And the next day the doctor said it's some type of mental illness. I was shocked because mental illness does not run in my family. My mother never had it. My father never had it. My grandparents never had it. And it felt like I was dying really really dying and going to hell. Everyday seem like hell. Everyday the devil will appear and say evil stuff. Everyday demons will come out and taunt me. I could not work. I could not hang out around most people or certain people. It was a nightmare. And I finally told my friend Joyce after going through numerous upton amount of tests. Joyce told me she believe it. She told me that we should pray just pray. And I told her I would think about it. Joyce got louder and said Louisa you can't think. You can't function properly. You are living in hell and you don't want help. You don't want assurance. You don't want peace. You don't want hope. You don't want God. God is good. God is greater than your illness. God is greater than your problem. I will pray for you. Pray for you to trust God. God is your doctor. Just listen to this song. And after I was done meeting with Joyce who gave me a CD called I Love the Lord. I hugged Joyce and told her good bye. That night was awful something was trying to take me out. Something had grip me and I was struggling to sleep. and I got up and heard a voice say listen to the CD. And I listen and begin crying profusely. I never listened to church music lately. But I was missing something and I put the CD on replay all night. And I fell to my knees and said God if you are there in Heaven on the Throne, forgive me. Forgive me for not listening to you. Forgive me for not believing in you. Help me, help me Father. If you healed me touch me right now I will run from Hell. I will run with you. I will do your will. In Jesus name Amen. And I kept the CD on and took some more medicine and slept on the sofa with a blanket and pillow. And I slept and I did it again and again and again. Eventually, I finally told my doctor and Joyce gave me a Bible after telling her. And she prayed with me and I got saved and begin reading daily. And that's my life with a mental illness, I trust God reading his word and praying and praising Him. And testifying and being thankful, my relationship is closer. And taking my medicine, now I've been changed and for God I live no matter what for God I die.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in Confessions
A Soldier of the Bourgnewian Kingdom
I never thought His Majesty would look upon me after all I am just a lowly soldier in his army. It was after the Battle of Pigs that I received the honor. The men fought valiantly and they were amazed at how much they had driven back the enemies of the kingdom. It was only a few of us men valiant men who fought the battle while others retreated and we were braved. And we had courage even though the battle did not look within our favor. We fought this war. We fought this battle. And we were willing to die for His Majesty and the kingdom. You see the Kingdom of Bourgnew was our home. It was our livelihood. And we were not gonna let anyone take that away from us. We believed in His Majesty. We believe in His wisdom and His sovereignty. And that's what I used to gathered the men. That they loved the Kingdom of Bourgnew and that they loved their homeland and are loyal subjects to His Majesty King Mattius. King Mattius guaranteed that he would give special benefits to those who fought valiantly. And that they would receive the King's Honors. And he was a man of his word and he had the grace and reputation to do so. And the government was behind him and his officials were loyal subjects. I fought bravely with the men. And we did not have much losses. We stood on the line and fought valiantly and we were not willing to fail or give up. We were of the highest order in our minds. And we were willing to die for our country and His Majesty. The enemies of the Kingdom begin to speak in our language but that did not detour us. We knew they were trying to mess with our heads and stop us from valiantly fighting. And we captured their leader and we captured their valiant men. And we chained them up and stripped them of all their glory. And we hauled them to our base and prison. When His Majesty heard the news, he came himself. He came to the front secretly and we did not know. We just assumed he was higher authority. And His Majesty was delighted at the courage of his men and he was delighted with their valiant. And he invited them after under-covering himself to the Royal Banquet. I Captain Leon Davidie was honored to serve for the king. And that night I got drunk and slept with a maiden. And she made me swear that I would not tell anyone. She was lovely like a princess, a Queen in my book. And I love every minute of her of seeing her she was just simply lovely. A few weeks later, it was heard that the King Mattius was in an uproar. His wife was rumored to be pregnant and some say she cheated on him. And so the King searched for her adulterer. And the bad lot fell upon my troops, all of us were interrogated and persecuted. And while in jail, I told my men that I would take the fall. Afterall I believe that princessly maiden could of been the Queen because she was just lovely. She was beautiful in every way and she had me to swear. And my men said all the women were lovely. All the women were beautiful. We cannot let you take the fall. We all will say. And I insisted No save yourselves. You have been loyal enough to me. You have saved my life over and over again. I will not let you fall for me. I am your Captain and this is my last command. And I spoke to the Guard, Sir I confessed. I slept with the Queen. And the Guard told his Captain and they moved me into solitary. And the men cried and they were distraught. The King interrogated me with the Queen. And the Queen proudly said I did not sleep with that man. And the King demanded that I tell the story. And I told the story about how I was drunk and a beautiful maiden that appear like the Queen slept with me. The Queen said Mattius do you know how old I am? Really do you know how old I am? I am only six years younger than you. How could I be a beautiful maiden then? Then the King said But did you sleep with someone else is my question? The Queen said Many people want a Queen, many people fantasy about royalty but my eyes and loyalty is to the King. The King regretted I know when my beloved is telling the truth. She acts like my mother. Released him and make him a general. And just then I was released and promoted by His Majesty King Mattius thanks to the Queen.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in History
The Good Fortune
I am just a poor little woman from Bach, Mississippi. What do I know about anything? My father was poor and my mother was poor. All my siblings started from poverty. What do I know about wealth? I never thought in my wildest dreams of anything. Because too much is given much is required says the Good Book. I never thought in my life. It started while working at the restaurant. I worked at my uncle's restaurant since I was 14. I never asked for no raise. I never asked for anything. I was just happy to cook and work. Because that's what my parents taught me. You worked hard you receive. You worked hard you get. You worked and worked and a blessing. The only name I went by was Rebekka. All my friends called me Rebekka and all my family called me Rebekka. I was Rebekka of Bach, Mississippi. And my family lived here most of their lives ever since slavery ended. We lived in these shacks and never looked back. We were just happy to be freed and without bondage. You oppressed people so much that they just want to be freed., They just want to be by themselves. All by themselves and don't care about money or fame. Although I was famous in church for my Southern gumbo. The Pastor said Rebekka cooked us some of the most excellent gumbo that God gave you. I would be like all Pastor don't. My grandma and mother taught me and my uncle did give me the job. And after being shy of relationships and being married. This man came to my uncle restaurant. He must of been an out of townee or something. He had on this fancy suit and this suitcase. And he would order just a sandwich and chips and a light drink each time. My uncle thought he is from the IRS or some federal agencies. I thought nay he must be up to something. So he told me to keep watch and have good conversations. I shouted Hey you. And he politely looked at me. What;'s your name? My name is Rebekka everybody call me Rebekka. He politely said Mr. Peterson. I said let me buy you a drink on the house. You will love the Caribbean, it's sweet and tangy and full of flavor. And he said Thanks. So I made him the house drink. he just said thanks. I said where are you from? He said pulling his glasses off I am from an agency. i said what the government or something? He said No. And he had a phone call that made him abruptly leave. And I went in the back after checking everyone on a full house. I told my uncle. And he said he still thinks he is from the IRS. He eventually came back and asked what church I go to? I said Calvary Baptist Church down the street. My family always go to church most of the week and so does everybody else. He said Good when is service? I said well they usually do service every Sunday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. He said I will be there and you will find out why I am here. So I politely wave to him and told uncle. And uncle sweated and said be there and tell everyone that I will give them a discount if they find out why he is here. I said Whoa I am not making that gumbo. Uncle if I find out you better hire a new staff because I am tired of gumbo. Days later on Saturday, we were having church and praising the Lord and I was getting my praise on. Just because God is that good and I liked to thank him. And just before prayer, Mr. Peterson stepped in and he said he has to testify. I am from one of the agencies up North. And somebody I need to talk to. Everybody begin talking and scared. The Pastor silenced the church with the choir humming the spiritual, It is Well. And the Pastor spoke to Mr. Peterson and asked him privately but Mr. Peterson resisted and said I will talk to you if I could bring the person out. The Pastor let him. Mr. Peterson said I am looking for Saint, the last name is Saint. And the church laughed we all are Saints in God's eyes. What are you talking about man? said the Pastor. Mr. Peterson said Julia Saint. And the church started asking each other. Then the Pastor said Can we please get on with the sermon? People have to go home. Mr. Peterson said Her name starts with an R. I was shocked but so were the other people. Mr. Peterson said born in Virginia, Mississippi. And my uncle came into the meeting. And he heard and pulled me out and said Rebekka your real name is Julia Rebekka Saint and you were adopted. I said No uncle no. He said shaking his head yeah yeah. I almost passed out when my uncle straighten me out to save the town by saying it was me. I said it quietly and a little louder and then loudly. And Mr. Peterson said That;'s your name, ah ah ah I found her. You are the heir of Mr. and Mrs. Saint you are worth a fortune. Then I passed out and the church members came to help me. i said No Lord no. I worked all my life. I am not a rich snob. I worked all my life. The next day Mr. Peterson met me alone at the restaurant while my uncle was getting the restaurant ready. Mr. Peterson told me about my parents and he reassured me that I was their only heir. Then he asked me what I would do with the money. And I said spend on charities, save the church, repair the restaurant, and live well. Mr. Peterson said You really impressed me. You are thoughtful and kind. Your parents could not have prepared for this. Your check will be in the mail. Good Day Ms. Julia Rebekka Saint.
By Matthew Primous5 days ago in Confessions
The Times of Clive Levy
As I tell you this story I am crying not tears of defeat but tears of joy. I will tell you why later. My story begin in Florida where I was born. Clive as the first child of Ella and Phillip Levi. And my family was normal and stable as long as Momma was around. She had a few more children and I had to help around the house. But I was glad to do anything for my Momma. She loved me. She really really loved me. And she was pretty and she was kind and smart. And she wanted me to be something. Momma was the best gift I got from God I thought as a child. And the family grew and was stable. Then suddenly out of nowhere Momma passed away leaving a husband and four children. My father made me quit school and work to make ends met. My father was a harsh man and very stubborn. And as I grew older he became more and more strict. One time I beg to go out and spend time with some friends and my father threatened to beat me. And I beg my father many times and reminded him of what it was like to be young and adventurous but my father did not listen. So I held in my desire to explore the world and I kept to myself. Then the war broke out, World War 2 my father and I signed up for the military. My father tried to take my paycheck too but they would not let him. I had freedom. The military was much freer than being at home with my father. And I had friends and met other women. I went to the bar and I was likable. I did not want to leave. But eventually the war ended and we went home. My father tried to empty my accounts and put me back under his rule. I believe my father hated me. He would never tell me that he loved me especially after Momma died. He became mean and surly. He was always angry and mad. He treated us like property than children. And he outright did what he wanted but left me to take care of my brothers. I started to go to church and make friends. I met some cousins. And I told them what my father was doing. And they saw that he was mean and surly and how he treated me like a slave. I was older now, a soldier and a man and I was not gonna take it anymore. Cousin Ralph and I was leaving. So we plotted our escape at church and everybody went to church both night and day, well we met there one night and fled. My father was onto us the next day. Ralph and I escaped with jobs in the local churches and on farms because back then you can find a job on the farm or church and they will pay you and feed you and clothe you and give you a place to stay with some money. And we stall my father for weeks and enjoyed freedom. Then my father had the police looking for me. So I realized that Ralph and I had to escaped as far as possible up North for freedom. I knew my father would leave me alone if I go up there. And my father caught up to us. I tried to avoid fighting my father because the Word says Honor your father and mother. I just told my father before we catch the train. Leave me alone Father. And he said No I won't you will serve me till you die boy. And I said You're suppose to love me and you don;t. You hate me ever since Mom died. And I am not your property. Now I am leaving and you will never see me again. And Ralph and I jumped on a random train. And my father threw a fit in the field and left angry because his shotgun was unloaded and the train left before he could loaded it. I was freed. No more slavery. I was a man. Ralph made fun of what my father said and I laughed freely and without restraint or worries. I prayed and thanked God and I worn the cross that the church gave me. And I thought Ralph what if he tries to come for me to kill or threatened me. Ralph said Change your last name, he's Levi you can change yours to Levy. And I said Yeah my father is not the smartest man. And I won't go by my middle name either. On our way up North I met this beautiful woman Victoria. Oh man she had to be taken as lovely as she is. Ralph was my wing man but I remember she told me what church she went to. And then I saw her at the Jazz Club and I read a love poem to her. And next thing you know it we were married. And my father was dead then. Victoria had family issue but not like mines. She had been married but she was available and single. And she loved playing the piano. Her parents had issues too but she had a better family than mines and they were really welcoming. She was alone up North and we started our family together without anyone else except ourselves. You see Matt that's how your grandfather lived, that's how I became the man that I am today. You can too be somebody I know it. Keep up the grades and do what's right and God will bless you too.
By Matthew Primous7 days ago in Confessions