Onigiri

I made the rice balls you called

adventurous

and you’re occupying my

whole mind now

the stars say this years is for

becoming self reliant

I have to agree but I really

want to

make you meals and

cry with you in bed in those

night long rituals

that we do.

I made myself those rice balls

they have in anime

care for the inner child.

This is the first week I could

afford

three square meals

the Universe says that I have

to learn the new blueprint

and I agree but also

fuck hardship,

I’m ready

for the abundance that is

my birth right.

I want to watch sailing videos

with you

knowing we probably cannot live

in the space of a boat together

we’d drive each other crazy

but I still want

to make love in the cabin

on a windy day

when it sounds like the end of the

old world

and we are the new one.

It’s mad that I’m just learning

to love myself

as much as I love you.

It will be worth it.

And I can still make you

more rice balls.